I accept

that I have not attracted love, joy and loyalty --

I have not cultivated these magnetic elements within myself.

I accept

that I have "missed out" on things. I can be a drag, a flake...

But I believe

we all learn differently. God speaks to me in my solitude.

There are things I would genuinely like to enjoy. "Normal" young people things, like parties and flings and running the streets. But sometimes I get assurance that it is OK not to live like the world.

Not many people will understand that.

A happy life is self-defined. It should be measured by whether you smiled today. Whether you sighed contentedly.

I didn't surf or breakdance or zipline today. My sugar daddy didn't find me at the mall today. Nobody took me on a hot date. But I paid my rent, bought myself some groceries, and a friend waited for my presence when she left work so we could grab a drink and catch up.

My cat laid her head on my feet and fell asleep. And I slept well, too.